I’m so sorry you’re gone and didn’t get to realize your goal of walking again.
It’s OK. It wasn’t the purpose and I sort of knew that then but I had to keep my mind focused on what I was doing, because it kept me focused on everything I needed to be doing. Had I dropped the ball, or my interest, or my passion, in any one area of my existence, it would have been too easy to let go of all of it, because it all took a lot of effort, but effort I was happy to give. I needed to give it. It was my lifeblood in a way, separate from my family. I am touched by the love I have felt since my passing, and I feel that the work I began, or gave my voice to, is not over. There is much to be done, and in my absence, someone else will speak with my voice and their own. They should not feel bad or self-conscious about using my name, invoking me and my challenge. That was the whole point. You can look at my whole life and see how it fits together and how it was meant to be as it all happened. I am happy for it. What an awesome gift, to be the voice for so many. Quite an honor, really.
We will miss the beauty of your spirit. I do hope it is carried by others and that your work and sacrifices were not in vain.
No, it isn’t. Nothing ever is. All force of energy leads to something. You only see little bits of the big picture at a time, but believe me, when you can see the whole thing, what an awesome sight. Don’t let anything get in your way, if you see a path that leads you to be of contribution in your life. Effort with positive intent, meant to be for the greater good, manifests exponentially more energy. You begin with the manifestation of energy in a certain direction, and more follows. Like a magnet. The pull creates more pull. Stem cell research will be debated and argued for years to come, but while people argue, people will also learn more about the possibilities and the measure with which it can be used, researched, argued. You see, science is a tool we use to discover ourselves. The outer possibilities cause us to search within. The way you see things differently in a mirror than you do with your eyes. It’s a different view, but quite often an inner view, and that is much more complex and interesting than what we explore on the outside. But the point of this search is that we don’t have to keep suffering the way we do with these diseases. We can use the resources we are given – our own bodies – to heal our own bodies. This was always the case, but it takes time to come around, and this will take time to be accepted enough that we can use it to help us. But it will come to that. And there are parallel points in this exercise: The search to get to the cures for these debilitating diseases, but also getting to a cure of what eats at us spiritually. This is a journey for many and the outcome will surprise. There is much to search, inside and outside us. Keep searching. Those who want to do the searching – for science, for cures, for spirituality and peace – these people are precious (as are we all). But the number of seekers seems to be in decline. There is much yet to learn. But the point is in the journey, every bit as it is in the destination, both in science and in life in general. Allow the pull. Allow the curiosity. In fact, ask for it, and accept it with gratitude. You never know what you’ll discover or who you’ll inspire along the way. Just don’t stand back and let someone else tell you what to believe. Don’t hand your precious experience over to someone else.
